I Donate my O+ blood every 2 months at the American Red Cross scard to grown up but at least I'm 18 an no kid so no one to push me ....something in my life that sadens me is my father for him to be in an out of my life every 6 to 8 years hertz and when i was younger i pushed him away but it hard having him show up after 8 years trying to be my dad an i was about 13 not wanting to do any thing with him but now what i would give to talk to him once a year to get to know the man i once called dad memorys of him brushing my hair fixing it, scraching my back until i fell asleep, in his arm while crowched down talking to his friends having bar BQ every weekend sipping off his beer. so many but so few compeared to the once i want ....... to know my dad would open a hold new chapter in my life like marrige i aways known that when i got married i wanted him there not to give me away but to see me as a women to tell him i want him in my life... for me i know uselly the father gives the bride away but to me if he is there it would not feel right becuase he was never my father figure the one i want to walk me down the ill will be my bigg brother Ben he has aways been there for me even proved for me when mom was fisickley an amotionly anivalbe.....my eleder brother even no it was not his responciblity helped me throuh my brothers passing my moms relationships my gangsta faze even as kids.........
