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Mommy to the MOST Handsome Baby Boy Hudson Paul Crowe�

Favorite saying

• "The Time I’ve wasted is my biggest regret Spent in these places I’ll never forget. Just sitting and thinking about the things that I’ve done The crying, the laughing, the hurt, and the fun. Now it’s just me and my hard driven guilt Behind a wall of emptiness I allowed to be built. I’m trapped in this prison, just wanting to run Back to my youth with its laughter and fun. But the chase is all over and there’s no place to hide Everything is gone including my pride. With reality suddenly right in my face I’m scared alone and stuck in this place. Now memories of the past flash through my head And the pain is obvious from the tears that I shed. I ask myself why and where I went wrong I guess I was weak when I was strong. Living for the drugs and the wings I had grown My feelings were lost, afraid to be shown. As I look at my past, it’s so easy to see The fear that I had was the fear of being me. I pretend to be rugged so fast and so strong When actually lost, like a blinded old fool. I’m getting to old for this tiresome game Of acting real hard with no sense of shame. It’s time that I change and get on with my life Fulfilling my dreams of a family and a life What my future will hold, I really don’t know But the years that I’ve wasted are starting to show I just live for the day when I get a new start And the dreams I still hold still deep in my heart I hope I can make it; I at least have to try Because I’m headed toward death and I don’t wanna die. ~~Christine Wilson"