About

death is life lived to the fullest. Life is death not yet lived. I was born in Bell flower, Ca but raised in Woodland and Knights Landing Ca. I met my first husband in Pomona Ca and was married to him for 9 years when he passed away. I had 2 sons with him and am very proud of my boys! My oldest has given me a grand daughter and she is pure joy! I have a daughter who makes me smile every day. My baby boy is just that my baby. I met my second husband in Springfield, Mo and we were married 1 month short of 13 years when we went our own ways:). I am ready to live again but have little faith in men and their ability to commit to a long term relationship. I am not interested in empty promises. I don't know what I want any more. I only wanted was to be with one man now I'm not sure I even want a man any more. My heart only wanted was to know that I could look to my side and see my partner, my best friend and know they would always be there for me no matter what. Maybe a man isn't capable of such a commitment. Maybe I should just be happy with what companionship my children and their families offer me, but I know that's not enough that is why I risk being hurt again trying to find hopefully that last one who will see me out of this world and into the next.

Favorite saying

• "fuck you, fuck you, fuck you, you're cool, fuck you, I'm out! ,I wear black because it blends well with my soul., I hope you choke on your lies., The trip of life is expensive.....but the toll of death is free. Your life shouldn't be measured buy the breaths you take but by the moments your breath is taken away. I am what I am."